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i got a new LJ. its so lame but wtever. i cant figure out how to make it where i post it on here and then u click it. but go find me..Texasmatt1638

i RLLY dont wanna say goodbye to my parents...thinkin about it makes me cry

i'm thinkin about starting a new LJ. cuz this one has soo much stuff. and i need a fresh start. so be on the lookout

i just need to write. freakin clear crap up. i hate havin stuff on my mind and having it just float in my head and have no purpose. all it does is stress me out and get me all worked up. But seriously screw it. i just wanna move away. far away and take good people with me. people that arent bad. people that just wanna laugh and smile and not fight. people that make me happy. people that i can make happy. and sadly enough thats only really like 4 people in my life right now. isnt it bad when i only wanna see 4 people in my life?? i seriously dont wanna hang out with anyone else but them. cuz they are trouble free. they dont have a worry in the world. they just walk without a hint of trouble in their life. and i love it. cuz they're just like me. i'm tired of sittin and doing nothing. i'm tired of goin to a place simply to sit on a bench or to sit by a car. its freakin gay. New friends equals new adventures. New beginning and new endings. starting all over. doing it all over again. i love this feeling. i love gettin to know someone else for the 1st time. the talks, the walks, the hugs, the laughs and all the fun. its wat i need right now. i dont need drama. i dont need for people to try to make me feel bad. i dont need stupid text messages asking me questions that they already know the answers to. its dumb. i just need to be happy. and thats rlly wat i am right now. i love life. i love wakin up and not havin to worry about anything. i love practicin with my band and not havint to worry about finishin on time.

change is always good. whether it be horrible change or the best change. it may take some gettin used too. but in the long run things always work out for the best.

I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers.
I'll be alright when my hands get warm.

i think its weird that i was just writin about change and then that line came up from Dashboard haha. seriously they just sang it. Dashboard brings back so many memories of Texas. and driving my 1989 Chevrolet Celebrity to the beach with my ex g/f Rose and her sister Roxanne and our best friend Melissa. those were the good ol' days. i loved it. i remember playin dashboard for everyone and how they all hated it. and then eventually they all fell in love and were askin me to burn it for them. i miss them so much. i swear if i didnt move from texas me and rose would still be together. She was amazing. we would spend ALL day together. seriously i would wake up in the morning call her and talk for an hour. then she would invite me to her house for breakfast. where she would make eggs and toast for me. we would eat and then go lay down on her bed and watch tv. then we would usually run errands. then come back. i would go home for a bit and then around 8 or 9 go pick her up and go out and then usually end the night back at her place just cuddlin. it was amazin. seriously so perfect. no worries. i remember saying goodbye to her when i moved. crying. huggin. i hated it. things ended good and we're still best friends. i miss that. i miss texas. i miss the older days. but i'm happy where my life is right now and where its going. like i said New beginning and new endings.

Praying for life
Avoiding death
Praying for forgivness
Avoiding temptations
Praying for broken hearts
Finding pieces
and slowly putting them back together
Finding additional pieces
that you never knew you had.
Finding places for them
Replacing ruined, brokened pieces.
Moving on
Goin further and further.
to places you've never been
loving this feeling.
Starving for more.
this isnt the end
its simply the beginning
New Beginnings, New endings.

-you make me happy. thank you for being who you are. if i have a bad day. u dont make it worse. you make it better. you taste soo good. if i could have you for 24 hrs straight i would. but i heard u make people sick. but i still love you. thats right. thank you for being Chocolate Milk

-seriously dude. stop being so good. haha i never get tired of you and i hope u dont get tired of me. ur my best friend. i sometimes neglect you. but i still love you man. i pray for you man a lot. i hope u find a good girl. cuz i know ur waitin for one. and if that ho screws you over she's dead. srry for ruinin ur date the other day ;) one day if you and me never find anyone to spend the rest of our lives with. we're movin far away and chillin.

-you rlly like my brother. you joke around a lot with me how he is the better version of me because he chills with all you guys now. kinda like i used to do last yr. i would like to say it doesnt bother me but it kinda does. i'm not jealous. it just got old super fast.

-i kinda hate you now. but of course i'll be fake around you and pretend i do like you.

-you said you were gonna change. wat happen? i guess that got old too

-be your own person stop being something ur not. its not cool sleepin around. go get knocked up. go get an STD that would be tyte. NOT. its dumb.

-you make me happy.i love talkin to you. our conversations are the best i mean no silence just a lot of talkin. i love askin question after question with you. we've been hangin out a lot. i cant wait to see where its going with us. i wanna take you out just me and you. but its too soon. but we'll see how that goes

-haha

NO? screw you. jk

Saturday: drove to Warrenton to visit brandon at work. well actually just to pick up tickets for the June 10th show. drove out there with Wali and Mody. we then went to the mall after. then the show was super good. it was a lot of fun. i kinda dont like the new setup. i mean i though i did. but i dont know now. but oh well. Abacabb's new guitar player isnt that bad. after the show i mean like RIGHT after the show. me sean jordon and my bro left to go watch UFC at my house. stupid Matt Hughes beat Royce Gracie. screw that.

Sunday: went to meet alexis to sell her a ticket for june 10. then i went to the Mall to meet wali. he took soo long so i got hott in my car. so i went inside and sat alone. then i found out Mody was in the movies so i made him come out and sit with me for 1 second haah. wali showed up so me and him walked around lookin for potential jerbangs to buy tickets from me. we only talked to 3 people. i then went home to take care of some business. went to dinner with some lovely ladies. and then went back to vienna to meet up with Wali and Losh. we then went to old town Alexandria. and it was soooo good. i loved it. spedin time with 2 people that are freakin amazin is wat i needed. my phone also ended up fallin into the Potomac river hahaa. which sucked ballz at the time but i got over it. i actually started thinkin that here i am complainin about a stupid phone that fell into a river when other people are dealin with soo much more crap thats way worse. and then i started thinkin about how greatful i was to be with amazin people and how many good friends i have. so it was all gravy. we then road around dc for a while and then i crashed out int he back of Losh's car. it was soo good. she has nice seats.

it was a good weekend i must say. a terrible week but a good weekend. if u didnt know already Lydia broke up with me AGAIN. but this time im not gonna let it bother me. i'm a stronger person because of it.

i'm tired of games
i'm tired of drama
i'm tired of fighting
i'm ready for a change
and i guess this is it.

i rlly should of let you go the 1st time you ended it.
but no i stayed right by ur side.
and wat happen? i fell right into it again.
i let you hurt me again. andi know ur saying its my fault
but it truly isnt. you did this. and if u say ur hurting.
well u brought the pain upon urself.

i'm not gonna lie. guys get over girls soo fast.
and i am over you. so if you dont wanna be friends.
its not a problem. srry i'm more mature than some people.
and i actually stay friends in certain situations.
but oh well. life goes on.


srry to everyone who had to read all that crap. its the last you'll see me write on that subject.

was actually pretty darn good. our band recorded today with the help of the ever so kind Alex Evans. it sounded rlly good. i recorded my bass parts seperatly from the drums and guitar so i got to hear everything so clearly and it helped soo much. Alex is gonna master it and Brandon is gonna do the VOX for it. we're doin good so far. Downtown Singapore is sellin their old Ampeg 8x10 for 600 and Mikey got them to lower it to 550. which is soo good. u cant beat that. so i'm pickin it up on friday or saturday of next week. i cant wait. i love my friends.

tonight after recording we went to meet up with Katia, Meghan and their friends and we were gonna go Laser taggin but that didnt happen. so then we all decided to go see a movie but Xx-menX was sold out so we went to subway and ate. then on the way home Katia called me and asked if i wanted to go to a playground and chill with her. so i went and we layed on the bridge and looked at stars. i showed her that there are Satelites in space and u can actually see them haha. she had no clue. and she showed me the big dipper. which i had kinda never knew where it was HAHA. but i love nights where i dont plan anything and things just kinda fall into place. those nights are usually the best.

Abacabb is tomorrow. its gonna be fun. and then i get to watch Royce Gracie beat the crap out of Matt Hughes on UFC ppv. im gonna love it. chyeeahh

i dont even know with you.

soo this little band i'm in (Amicus), got added to the so called SHOW OF THE SUMMER. its gonna be fun. Horse the band got added. we are sellin presale tickets for 20 instead of paying 25 at the door. help us out in any way shape or form. it will be greatly appreciated. even if you dont help i'm still gonna love you!!

Matt

this weekend was pretty tight. it started early thursday cuz i didnt go to work very long. they didnt need me. which made me happy. went home and napped. well actually i came home to find my brother in my bed nappin so i had to wait for him to finish. then went to Alexis' to watch the OC. that HO marissa died which made me happy. then hung out with Lydia after:)

Friday: woke up late. Mody was doin sound for the side stage at kc's. so i took him we left super early and set up everything there. This Time Its War played 1st which i'm sure they were pissed about. but they did super good. APK played and i'm pretty sure i was the only one focused on them. i loove them soo much. seeing them made me love them more. They started off with Once and then into Equals just like the cd and it was soo beautiful. they playeed a lot of old stuff which made me sad cuz i didnt know any of it. so i asked if they had their old cd and they had just sold out. so i came home and thanks to JP i got the old cd. and i love it.

Saturday: i did nothing all day. well i went to eat lunch with Wali at Potbelly's. we ran into Buddy and Ryan there so we ate with them. it was good. we then drove around and got stuck in the traffic for the funeral for that officer who got shot. i would normally complain about traffic but i couldnt. it was actually an honor. it was beautiful to see all the cop cars drivin in Respect for a lost friend. The Firemen parked there trucks on the over pass and stood on the Firetruck with there arms behind there back. it was amazin. i pray for all who are hurting in his loss.
i then went out to eat with Lydia which i hadnt done in SOOOOOOO long. and i had forgotten how much i loved doin this. we then went to the movies but they werent showin anything worth watchin so we left and went to the show. just in time to see MFH. they did good.

Sunday: sean and jordon came over to chill for a bit. we all went to the mall and ate and then we went to P-vill to see Murderwalk, Mercutio in arms and INVU. it was a lot of fun but NO ONE was there. but i didnt expect anyone to come anyways. i felt bad for INVU Kai didnt have his guitar head so he had to borrow one. His guitar then messed up so he ran and got another one and then the head messed up. and then the amp just stopped workin all together. The Jerry's Bass Amp stopped workin. so it was just casper and Joe playing. but we still danced as hard as we could for them. i love them. Natalie didnt play with them :( but they held it together.




blah. my wrist hurts now!!!!!!!!

this will be mine in a couple of days


its a crap load of money but its soo worth it. i still have to buy a head though.

things are looking good. the band is going soo good. we're writing a lot and we come up with parts that shouldn't work but somehow do. our 1st show is with The Acacia Strain and the kidnapping. its gonna be fun. the only bad thing is we were put on the flyer as For Life in 58. its not rlly bad but it kinda is. i mean we're not tryin to take over as fli58 and we're not playin any of the old songs. the only thing that resembles fli58 is brandon on vox. so how this happened i have no clue. we dont wanna lead people on and make them think its a fli58 reunion show cuz they will be sadly dissapointed. so we have to come up with a name for the band ASAP.

the show last night wasnt too fun. i mean it was alright but nothing special. Tony Danza did AMAZING!!!!! i love those guyz. the singer cracks me up. true thugz did rlly good. buddy's vocals sound better and better each time i see him. age of ruin sucked. i love their cd but live. not so good. the acacia strain did amazing minus the fact that they played Carbomb differently and minus the fact that they didnt play Smoke Ya Later. but it was a semi-good show. BTBAM, AUgust Burns red and APK is friday i cant wait. i'm actually more excited to see APK than any other band there. should be good. k bye. i want HOTPOCKETZ SOO BAD

this weekend wasnt that bad. well actually it kinda was haha. all minus friday night. i went to see Once nothin and OEOA in C-ville. the place was soo bad and the kids were ever worse. the second i pulled up i knew i was gonna hate every single kid there. and then i remembered Once Nothing was playing so i would get a chance to murder every kid there. and boy did we. Me, Mikey, Sean, Chris Morgon, my brother Mike, and Jimmy freakin killed kids. it was fun. we were actually dicks that night. which was odd. they had no clue wat was goin on.

anyways. my aunt and cousin are in from Tx and they'll be here till Tuesday. my cousin becky is tryin to figure me and my brother out. i can tell. she's like wats wrong with ur hair. u guyz should get an uptown fade. hahah and my brothers response was "we're not gangsters". its funny. she has no idea wat we're about. i look forward to educating her to a certain extent.

in other newz. this is the 2nd yr in a row that i havent been with my mom on Mothers Day. i knooow its just a comercial holiday but i still miss her. last yr i was in Ireland at this time and now she's in Egypt. i miss her. she called me this mornin and she sent me an e-mail today and said she expects gifts from all of us as soon as she gets here. i dont know wat to get her cuz when she gets back its gonna be a day before her Birthday and so i kinda have to comebine(sp????) her birthday gift with her Mothers day gift. so its gotta be good.

shows are lookin good for a while. the acacia strain is playin in sterlin and thats gonna be amazing. k well thats all i have to say. this should make up for my lack of updatin.

for never updating anymore. i'm gettin too lazy too. but oh well.

you're not missin out on much. but this weekend was tigght..

Friday: wasnt that tyte oh ya..

Saturday: woke up super late and completly forgot about band practice and when i did finally remember i had to watch my nephew for a bit. which was kinda lame but cool. then i went to eat Potbelly's with Wali and Katie Mullet. The Weather was beautiful so we ate outside. and talked for a while. then i went to play bass at church. then went to the show in Sterling. it was a lot of fun seeing everyone again. Underminded and 1 dead 3 wounded rlly impressed me. they were fun. Folly was amazing they just didnt play any of the songs i rlly wanted to hear haha. ok well they just didnt play "repeat, I Repeat, repeat". which i rlly wanted to hear. but they did good.

Sunday: i went to flipside FOOOO FREEE. i only wanted to see This day and age, Just Surrender and Mae. and i diiiiiid. This Day and Age did FREAAAAKIN AMAZING!!! as soon as i walked into the fest i ran to there stage and they were playin Second Place Victory and i was soooo happy. and then dumb wali got to go on stage to take pictures of them and that just made me jealous. k not rlly. but they were good. in my opinion the best performance of the day.

ya i've been busy. wtever bye

k so today i got into an elevator at work and proceed down from the 4th floor to the 1st and a lady got on from the 2nd floor.

Lady: hi, you know you always look sooo serene.

Me: wat does that mean?? lol

Lady: well you look very peaceful as if you dont have a trouble in the world.

Me: is that a good thing?

Lady: YES its a very good thing.

Me: wow well thank you very much.


seriously that made me day soooo goood. i was soo happy. cuz i'm always friendly to everyone at work and i always think it goes un-noticed(sp?) and knowin that it made 1 lady happy makes it all worth while.

Lydia, nicole, alexis, lauren price and I all went to reston town center to see that Rhiana(sp?) chick. it was free. but ya i got there late and they said she only played 3 songs haha. ya so i had never seen soooo many black people in my life. i swear it was straight up GHEEETTTOOO. the funniest thing is that when 5 people run one way EVERYSINGLE BLACK PERSON IN THE WORLD FOLLOWZ hahaha. oh man it was great. ya.

oh how i wish i was black...

GET THIS..

i did sooo much cleaning in my room today. i washed all my clothes, i'm washing my sheets and pillows ANNND i dusted. i NEVER do this stuff ever. and i still wanna do more. i still wanna clean and dust.
and this is also very strange. i actually wanna go into work tomorrow. i'm excited. lol
its weird as crap. this upcomin week is gonna be amazing. Black my heart is saturday and i'm pretty excited for it. and i also really got into too pure to die. its gonna be a good show. yaay

"I Love You More Than I Love Breathing".

hi.

this week has been a long week. workwise that is.

i'm glad its the weekend.even though i'm not doing much today its still nice.

yesterday i went to Potbelly's with Lauren Price and Alexis.
and then i came home and showered and drove to Vienna.
Alexis and I met Lauren at the Patrick Henry Library and hung out in the parking lot.
then came Nikki and then came Lydia.
we had a small snowboard and we did 180's and 360's
Nikki could not do them
we then went to Laurens house and jumped on her trampoline and did 5442334 backflips and we have pictures to prove it.
they came out great
Losh showed up
we then went to Wendy's
then back to Alexis' house and Losh and I 2-stepped and she wanted to learn how to throwdown but yaaaa that went no where
we then went to Jeff's house to chill with Brian iron, Ari and Buddy. it was fun. me and buddy drank a lot of sprite and 7-up. it was fun


i'm not going out at all today.
it feels good to just bum around in the house all day.
i've watched 222 episodes of Cops, 21141 episodes of Yo Momma, The Wedding Singer and White Man Can't Jump. its been a good day

and tonight on PPV Forest Griffen fights Tito Ortiz. i cant wait. my brother is ordering Pizza. its gonna be fun. yaay

life is pretty dandy.

Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory is on tv right now. and i'm talkin about the original one. this movie makes me soooooooo happy. the ooompa loompas are my favorite. i wish i owned 524244 of them.

ya i'd thought you all like to know this.

wanna know why??


cuz my left arm is darker than my right one haha. Lauren Price pointed it out to me the other day and now its been on my mind ever since.

note to self: go to Ireland and drive around until my other arm gets tan. yaaay. who's down??